Hell hath no fury...

Anger! That's the only word I can possibly think of that can describe how I'm feeling right now! Anger! Anger! Anger! I could scream right now I'm so angry! Life is so incredibly stupid! I know things are not supposed to be easy, but for god sakes why must everything go so wrong when it was originally perfect?! This can't be just teenage hormones, this is raw and furious. I hate everything right now! I could rip apart a barbie doll or slash a pillow right now I'm that frustrated! I suppose this all started on Wednesday. I hate Wednesdays now. They'll forever remind me of the worst day of my life so far. It started out alright, woke up, stayed off school to go to the dentist, went through excruciating pain as she drilled a few holes into my tooth and hit a nerve, I swear, I almost passed out it was so sore. My entire body was rigid as I lay on that horribly slippery chair with my head down lower than the rest of my body as she shoved two cotton buds between my teeth and cheek so she could attack the little black cavity in my molar. I honestly have no idea why so much pain should be created just to cover some tiny little hole, it makes no sense! I bet there's just a league of dentists who set out the ten commandments for the dentists, if there was it might go something like this...

League of Extraordinary Torturers.

• Thou shall always make a childs visit to the dentist an unhappy and uncomfortable one.
• Thou shall always be rude to the older children
• Thou shall drop bits of the filling down a patients throat to make their appointment as unpleasant as possible.
• Thou shall force the patient to wait in agonizing silence in a waiting room with magazines from three years ago for a minimum of thirty minutes before they shall be seen.
• Thou shall worship no false god, only Colgate.
• Thou shall give the teenage patients stupid pink barbie sunglasses to wear instead of the adult pair.
• Thou shall never refer to a patient by their name but use pedophile-ish nicknames such as sweety pie, hon, pet, lovey and various other creepy names.
• Thou shall always ask the patient to open their mouth more even when they are close to breaking their jaws apart.
• Thou shall always state that the patient needs braces.
• Thou shall always give the patient a large glass of water to rinse their mouth with then give a tiny basin for the patient to spit into, along with a minuscule tissue to wipe their mouth.

The end.
I'm quite proud of that actually, just thought up of it on the spot, I can honestly tell you that all of these things happened to me at least once. Especially the stupid pink barbie glasses one! I bet kids are not even given that. Just me. Dentists have something against me, maybe in the past life i was some tooth fairy! Now that would be interesting wouldn't it? It would certainly give the dentist a reason to dislike me so much, maybe I rejected their tooth for my castle! Wow. I was one mean fairy...


Anyway back to my original point...what was it again?...oh yea! ANGER! After I'd come back from the dentist, this guy that I was sorta dating (well it had been about half a week and my friends called him a stalker, the guy wanted me to meet his mom for christ sake!) was getting on my nerves, I'm not the sort of girl interested in the whole...lovey dovey crap. I'm more of a friendship type. I dunno...maybe i'm just not ready for any relationships right now, but honestly, what sort of girl wouldn't be annoyed by three texts a day saying how much he wanted her to be in his arms and to be with her? we weren't even technically dating! You have to kiss someone to be their boy/girlfriend! We didn't, so it wasn't even a relationship. More of a joke. He was clingy and behaved as though we were Romeo and Juliet when all it really was was a disfuntional long-distance relationship. Maybe I haven't said this before, but I life in the middle of nowhere in the countryside, hence the reason I'm here on my computer at 10 o'clock on a friday night instead of enjoying a social life. Well to cut a long story short...I broke up with him over the internet. Yes, some will say that was incredibly heartless of me and maybe you'll find some consolation that I felt terrible doing it, but I just didn't like being in the relationship and I thought if I broke it off before anything could happen then we'd both be a lot better off. Well after a mini-depression he seems to have landed on his feet yet again, (no suprise there then.) That same night I apparently had a 'freak-attack' at one of my friends because she didn't like the new girl in our class. In reality all I asked was "Why don't you like ____?" then my friend replied, "oh well she's always pushing into our group and clinging onto us," err....hello? isn't that the point of a group of friends? they cling onto each other lest they be trampled by the school? Besides she was new, and my so called friend was obviously a jealous drama-queen desperate for some attention which she wasn't going to receive, so after asking my friend to give the new girl a chance I went offline. Only to face more problems...So it was a normal thursday morning, i was chatting to friends who came in as early as I did about pretty much boring things when the drama queen enters. (Now let me point out that she usually sits next to me before I go any further.) Slamming her bag down onto a table two seats away from me she gave me a pure look of disgust as I smiled at her before shoving her ear phones into her ears and stalking off, raising an eyebrow I couldn't help but worry? What could I possibly have done now? It just so happened that the first class was a double PE. Great, I could pounce and demand a reason for the cold shoulder I had been given. You'll laugh when I say this, I know I did, this girl, this apparently 'clever' girl replied (through a messenger may I add, how fourth class school yard fight is that?) "I thought you were odd with my so I decided to be odd with you first and now I'm really angry at you!" My first response, (as yours may be) was....Whaaaat? Halfway through PE (the D.Q was apparently feeling sick so didn't participate, I was watching just after finishing my basketball match) I began to walk over to her when she stormed off to lock herself in the bathroom, following her I stood outside the door, annoyance rippling through me. What the hell was this girl's problem?! In as a controlled voice I could muster I spoke,
"____, I don't know what I did to you to make you so angry at me but for god sakes will you at least have the decency to face me? I never told _____(new girl) that you smoke and drink. (apparantly I said this right in front of her which of course was a lie.) If you're gonna behave like a child then thats fine by me. When you're ready to grow up I'll be there." With that I stormed from the bathroom, happy with my little speech as another of my friends came forward to offer me some support. None of my friends believed the DG was in the right, each backed me on hundred percent in my apparent 'war'. Well it's been two days now and I must say, this is becoming unbareable, as much as I remain civil she seems to feel the need to call me all sorts of swear words which honestly aren't needed. So this is mainly why I'm angry. Because I allowed myself to become friends with an ignoramus who has more eyes than IQ points. ooh buuurn.

Sonja x

Don't ask.

We all have issues right? (I'm expecting whoever is sitting behind that screen to nod their head and say 'hell yeah we do!') I'm fourteen years old and i already know that, the world isn't perfect and it's so pathetic when people believe they deserve better than what they get! People in general tend to bug me...

I heard in a movie once (don't ask which one because I honestly don't remember) "a person is smart...people are dumb." it's true isn't it? I'll take my class as an an example, you talk to one girl on her own (bar a few, there really are some stupid girls in my class -_-) she'll seem incredibly smart, ask her views on something that's happening in the world right now. (lets give the recession as an example,) her thoughts could be extremely interesting. You know, a lot of people my age didn't even know what the recession really was.

Amazing huh? It's happening all around us. You see a store close down, people on the streets, hell, you'd think they'd at least notice that there's hardly any more '09 cars anymore...but back to my original point, this girl could say things you'd hear in a political debate (because we can be quite smart you know.) or...she could say something like "uhhh....I like how there's, like, loads of sales like!"

That's a real cork thing isn't it? 'like' it's hard to find a corkonian (an amazing word that I thought up of may i add.) that doesn't add the word 'like' at least twice into every sentence they speak, it's annoying, but even I've slipped into the terrible habit, I used to do eloqution classes in my primary school as our teacher was obsessed with pronounced TH...

I have to admit, it really stuck with me and that teacher is a great influence. A completely nerdy thing to say on a blog but it's true. He taught me to write the way I do today, he really pushed us to describe our surroundings and built his life on the phrase "yes I can do." which is probably still stuck up on the wall above the door in our old classroom...

He's retiring this year, which is a tradgedy really...he's been working there as a teaching principal for fifty-something years I think and I can't possibly think of anyone in the world who could fill such big shoes. he was a really old-fashioned teacher who liked to teach in a way he thought would be interesting for us...

I'm almost glad he's leaving after I did. I couldn't imagine going to that school without him. A true rolemodel. Sayonara Mr. Lynch. AKA The master! (yep...he was called the master or 'sir')